"Hi my name is Rose and I am an alcoholic" is how I describe myself when I am amongst my AA brothers and sisters. Or if I was at an Incest Survivor's meeting, I would say, "Hi my name is Rose, and I am an incest survivor." Or I could be called a poet, a writer, an artist, a spiritual seeker, a Certified Aromatherapist (I own an organic aromatherapy company - www.organicinfusions.com), a mother, a wife.
Yet, these do not completely describe who I am.
So, who am I? This is a question that I often ponder with God. At 43, I still do not have a complete answer.
Just as the seasons change their colors, I too change with the seasons, as I am on a journey of Change - changing from who I thought I was into who God created me to be. You could say, I am on a journey to find and live my destiny. Not sure what that is yet, but I am willing to find out. I want to change my life and not hide behind fear. As Marianne Williamson often speaks of replacing fear with love. I want that. I want love.
No - I do not want others to love me, for I have lived that life and it is empty. It is empty when I would lie, cheat, and manipulate others to get my selfish needs met. As Mother Teresa said, "We can do not great things, only small things with great love". I want to love others. I am not exactly sure what that means either, but I have felt loves light course through my soul when I reach out to others who are suffering. Mother Teresa often spoke of the heart being filled with the Spirit of God when we love others. I have felt what she meant. I have felt the presence of God stirring my soul, filling me with more love than I ever thought possible.
My prayer and hope for this blog site is to be of service to others by sharing my experience, strength, and hope. I have written a book that is not yet ready for publishing and I will share bits and pieces of it in my blog. It is a book about my life and the journey I am on that is healing me from childhood sexual abuse.
So, here is how I would describe myself today on January 1, 2010 -
My name is Rose Heart and I am in Flux.
Who Am I? At 43, I still do not have a complete answer. Just as the seasons change their colors, I too change with the seasons, as I am on a journey of Change - changing from who I thought I was into who God created me to be. You could say, I am on a journey to find and live my destiny. Not sure what that is yet, but I am willing to find out. I sense who I am is not what my thoughts tell me I am, but rather, I am as Eckhart Tolle would say, "Consciousness"
REUNION
SYLPH
LIFES PURPOSE
Like a seed setting root
She seeks water’s right
To enter into agreement
To break apart with might
The majestic code of life
Is released from the Light
To bring forth her Path
Her future is so bright
This little babe is tested
Against storms of wind and hail
Her little leaves so fragile
Yet, the mighty Sun does reveal
A vibrant spark of life
Awakening to her right
To grow upon this earth
Absorbing the Sun’s Light
At first her leaves do quiver
For this is oh so new
Her leaves are filled with sunshine
Her essence reveals its cue
For a purpose is developing
In the warmth of the Good Sun
Her stem begins to tremble
Giving birth to reveal the One
For though her garden is tended
With Love and with Care
These elements can seem harsh
And fill her life with fear
Her roots reach for depth
Into the earth’s foundation
So when the storms do come
It holds her Soul’s Vibration
She continues through life’s change
As more leaves begin to grow
Layers of inspiration unfold
Holding on, yet letting go
Allowing her essence to expand
To reveal her garden’s waft
When weeds appear before her
She separates wheat from chaff
One day without a warning
She feels a swell within
A seed of inspiration sent forth
Original Intention is ready to begin
To live for her true purpose
No storm can drown away
Transforming tears of sorrow
Into a river that Leads the Way
Rose Heart
She seeks water’s right
To enter into agreement
To break apart with might
The majestic code of life
Is released from the Light
To bring forth her Path
Her future is so bright
This little babe is tested
Against storms of wind and hail
Her little leaves so fragile
Yet, the mighty Sun does reveal
A vibrant spark of life
Awakening to her right
To grow upon this earth
Absorbing the Sun’s Light
At first her leaves do quiver
For this is oh so new
Her leaves are filled with sunshine
Her essence reveals its cue
For a purpose is developing
In the warmth of the Good Sun
Her stem begins to tremble
Giving birth to reveal the One
For though her garden is tended
With Love and with Care
These elements can seem harsh
And fill her life with fear
Her roots reach for depth
Into the earth’s foundation
So when the storms do come
It holds her Soul’s Vibration
She continues through life’s change
As more leaves begin to grow
Layers of inspiration unfold
Holding on, yet letting go
Allowing her essence to expand
To reveal her garden’s waft
When weeds appear before her
She separates wheat from chaff
One day without a warning
She feels a swell within
A seed of inspiration sent forth
Original Intention is ready to begin
To live for her true purpose
No storm can drown away
Transforming tears of sorrow
Into a river that Leads the Way
Rose Heart
Sylph
Rainbow
EMILY DICKENSON
My favorite poet
ASCENSION
En-LIGHT-enment
About to Open
ROSE
FRAGRANT DREAMS
A vision of a girl
With hopes and dreams
A girl filled with Light
Love, as a laser beam
She is ready to seek
She is ready to know
As the dawn seeks the Light
She awaits the garden she hoes
What will become
Of this child filled with scorn?
She rides the tide of love
Through Faith, she is re-born
She allows the wind of God
To guide her boat, ever dear
As the Holy Spirit descends
She sails away from fear
She rides the storms of healing -
A past filled with incest
She prays for her father’s soul
This is love’s ultimate test
Composting her body, mind, and soul
Into the life she was born to live
A seed of innocence sets root
Wisdom’s nourishment ready to give
Her heart sprouts with love
That Light of God Shining
Her soul mate smiling
Her cloud’s silver lining
She opens up her heart
Her body, mind and soul
She surrenders love’s defense
And gives her love a hoe
They dig deep into the earth
Removing all the weeds
Clearing away the past
So they can plant new seeds
A new dawn on the horizon
An opening bud’s release
The fragrance of love is present
Two hearts live One in Peace
Rose Heart
With hopes and dreams
A girl filled with Light
Love, as a laser beam
She is ready to seek
She is ready to know
As the dawn seeks the Light
She awaits the garden she hoes
What will become
Of this child filled with scorn?
She rides the tide of love
Through Faith, she is re-born
She allows the wind of God
To guide her boat, ever dear
As the Holy Spirit descends
She sails away from fear
She rides the storms of healing -
A past filled with incest
She prays for her father’s soul
This is love’s ultimate test
Composting her body, mind, and soul
Into the life she was born to live
A seed of innocence sets root
Wisdom’s nourishment ready to give
Her heart sprouts with love
That Light of God Shining
Her soul mate smiling
Her cloud’s silver lining
She opens up her heart
Her body, mind and soul
She surrenders love’s defense
And gives her love a hoe
They dig deep into the earth
Removing all the weeds
Clearing away the past
So they can plant new seeds
A new dawn on the horizon
An opening bud’s release
The fragrance of love is present
Two hearts live One in Peace
Rose Heart
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